Monday, May 25, 2009
Liberation! Aching!
Ok, it's been a long time since I last posted.
So much has happened; the good, the bad, they come as a package!
Treading through, i felt a sense of growth and improvement in myself, though I cant really pinpoint where i've grown.
Assignments are finally over, as of last week. "Kawabanggga," I would say.
I've been posted to Fajar Sec for my practicum, but the school does not offer one of the subject I teach. Will be calling MOE, so I'll probably be reposted to another school.
I just hope they don't post me somewhere inaccessible!
Have been dancing nonstop ever since last week, practically everyday, and now my body feels 60-years-old. Backaches, stiff necks, etc.
The next few months will be physically and mentally torturing. I've four performance, two of which I'm superbly low in confidence.
- Danzpeople open house is pretty much settled, so I'm not worried.
- Becky's item for Dancetitude has started, but the concert's in August, so easy easy.
What boggles me are The Big Groove (TBG) and Brooklyn's Rock (I think that's how you spell it).
Performing for the latter two is an honour frankly. TBG is an annual Asia Hip Hop convention and the finale concert showcases 2.5 hours of performances from various parts of Asia , as well as Singapore. Call me a big fat liar if I say I'm least than afraid.
The immense pressure of performing on the same stage as titans if uncalled for. Carrying Danzpeople's name fuels the fear even more. What if I screw up? I'm so prone to screwing up. No, I can't screw up! I'll be skinned alive; that's considered merciful.
Then there's the extreme sense of inferiority performing on the same stage with Xiao, Erwin, Ahmad, Becky and Lina. They've had tons of experience compared to poor lil me. Sigh, I'm really fearful of letting everyone down.
I guess Yvonne & Zi Li (I think tt's how you spell her name) feels the same pressure under the shadow of Becky and Lina.
Caught this on my first try at the new mall in Bugis, Iluma. So damn cute! And best of all, it's wearing a green top. Unlike the conventional poohbear, its face looks bear-ish, if you know what I mean. haha!
Xiao said something which strikes me. He said I need to focus more on my lines. I've always thought my main problem was my sense of musicality. Maybe I've been too caught up with catching the beat that I compromised on my lines. Perhaps I should feel the music instead of trying to make sense of it with my mind.
" jOzACh want to learn to dance from the heart and not the mind"